Who am I with you?

Who am I with you?
You reached into my chest & seized the tender parts of me
Trojan horsed your way past my walls
You could have crumbled me
You could have plundered me of all my secrets
Rained locusts
But instead, you called me sister
Mayumi, my sister
You have made me better than I am
You’ve held a mirror to my face & given me bunny ears
How can I ever thank you for all the laughter?
My ribs rattled from it, that was only ever any pain
We linked arms & searched cities together
Planned out our expeditions for next time,
now that there won’t be a next time
I don’t know the steps forward
You had mapped those out for me
With you, I was someone’s sister, accomplice, best friend
Who am I without you?
I haven’t a clue where I go from here
From hurting, from loneliness, from without you
My past is myth
I need to eventually get up and write new legends
In them, every guide, mentor, and ally
They will all have your face
They will love with your heart
But your laugh?
I’ll hold that in my throat
& set it free