7. i suffer from terminal clumsiness

i suffer from terminal clumsiness
with a touch of delusion and 
occasional sore throat
dr. says it's because of a leak in my brain
and i'm inclined to believe 
whatever she says at this point
i'm busting at the seams with apologies
so maybe my creator stuffed me wrong
since my insides are showing
and leaving a mess wherever i go

give me a cup
& i'll make a puddle

give me a second
& i'll forget 

give me a ticket
& i'll fly out the next day
without a goodbye

give me a phone call
& i'll miss it
while writing a poem about missing home

give me a kiss
& i'll lean away without meaning to 
it's not your breath, promise

give me a chance
& i'll lose it through a hole in my back pocket
the same place i keep my excuses
and confidence

give me a pen 
& i'll gouge my eyes out
trying to write something pretty,
something worth redeeming about my soul