Why is it

Why is it
that when she takes the pills, we say, but
she was so young
Did her youth not give her the right to suffer?
to die?
we say, what 
a shame
Did she not do enough time in her bones to deserve people missing her?
to earn an honorable discharge?
am I wrong to do this. to look at her instagram and
tag the ugliness
that sour shadow stretching out from her soles
staining the underside of her smile
pointed imitation of her in full view of an
unwitting audience to murder
maybe one day i'll remember the smell of her hair
today, i only know the blunt edge of her goneness
i'm at a funeral for her pain